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NICOLE WHITE
I’m Nikky, a memoir author, Veteran & host of this podcast: Gods Not Thru With Me Yet •where I share my journey of faith, forgiveness, and resilience. Here you’ll find podcast episodes& heartfelt reflections. Faith takes work. Healing takes time.


Two Chains
The fairy tale of a prince looking for his true love and having a castle and a kingdom to share with someone but not having found her...
Nicole White
Mar 20, 20258 min read


Gardening at Midnight
Have you ever felt something and thought something and every thought or feeling is met with a reason why you shouldn’t feel that way or a way to overcome it? It is exhausting and truly feels like there is no rest for the weary there. I’ve been unsure where to lay it all down out. I’ve been confused about what I can feel and what I cant. I’ve been trying to uncover the feelings I buried. I’ve been trying to find the core of who I am and see where my roots were planted. I’m sti
Nicole White
Mar 20, 20254 min read


A MidWest Float Trip
Everything I have been avoiding is coming up now. I don’t go a day without thinking about drinking. I smoke so much now I feel the smoke and darkness in my lungs every morning when I get up. I feel pain in my body in places I never paid attention to. I’m trying to pin point the moment I stopped caring. It was when I stopped talking to God. If I could find those two places I could go back and talk myself through the pain. I could fix whatever mistakes I made. I allowed myself
Nicole White
Mar 7, 20243 min read


Jack Harlow & The Summer of 2022
Baby ! Let me tell you ! Summer 2022 is going to resemble Drake’s All Summer 16 & Meg the Stallions Hot Girl Summer. And not in the...
Nicole White
May 30, 20226 min read


Happy Mother's Day
As we approach the national holiday of Mothers Day, and as my therapist brings light to my “issues” revolving around the woman who gave...
Nicole White
May 30, 20226 min read


Babies Daddys
Lets talk about the people we have children with and the complexity of these relationships. I have two fathers to two beautiful children....
Nicole White
May 30, 20225 min read


Jenga
I had been feeling it for some time, the build up is always the worst pain. Not the realization that it is happening or the pain that...
Nicole White
Mar 6, 20226 min read


Open Chapters
This is the hardest chapter of my life to write, because I am now awakened to life itself. Looking back over this book, the writing of my...
Nicole White
Mar 6, 20224 min read


Whitney Houston & My Twin
Don’t make me close one more door, I don’t want to hurt anymore. Whitney’s soulful, sultry voice sums up my life right now. Longing for...
Nicole White
Dec 27, 20216 min read


Your Love Keeps Healing Me: R
Love truly heals all wounds and your love keeps healing me I was going through it trying to figure out everything within me and I...
Nicole White
Dec 27, 20214 min read


Infidelity & The Reflections
Yesterday I was driving down the backroads of TN. Still early enough in the day for good sunlight, I was watching my speedometer to be...

Nicole White
Nov 3, 20213 min read


Toleration, Questions & Insight to Where I Once Was
My mind is constantly pondering… does someone “tolerate” someone else in a relationship or “put up with” the other person ? Isn’t that...

Nicole White
Nov 3, 20213 min read


Chicago : R & The Southside
Chicago : R & The Southside I am exhausted because me and him stayed up until the wee hours of the morning. Yet I am still so energized....

Nicole White
Nov 3, 20216 min read
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